There's no comfort in another face.

Ruby Ember

2012-02-01T06:13:00.000-08:00

Some of you have repeatedly question me about this name.Some may think im just being a poser by using some cheesy name.However,the name means a lot to me.It isnt just some fake identity that im using.wanna know why?cause the name was given to me by someone very special.It was a gift.

Ruby-The name came about when i had dinner with Ms Elodie and K.I cant exactly remember what we were actually talking about but Ms Elodie said that the name Ruby suited me.So yeah,she was the one who 'named' me Ruby.

Ember-K gave me this name.He once told me that should he have a daughter in the future,he'd name her Ember.Thats how much i meant to him.That is why im never gonna stop using this name.its a constant reminder of the good times i had with him and im not willing to let it go.

So please,stop making fun of this name.It means a lot to me.I was his Precious Fire.

Gonna dry up my tears.

#ItsmorefuninthePhilippines!

2012-01-30T03:02:00.000-08:00

Hahahah.I know its a lame title but for today's post,im gonna talk about my half-homeland.You guys obviously know that im half-Pinoy and half-Indonesian,thanks to my parents love for each other-.-'.Hahaha. So yeah,Im mixed.

Another reason that got me wanting to blog about P land is that its exactly a week before mum goes back for her 2 weeks stay.Yes,she's leaving me and my father here.Actually,we didnt wanna follow.Its so boring there.Plus,i always get sick and the doctors there are kinda scary.Thats why mum's going home alone!ahhaha..she kept bitching about us not following but when we booked her flight with SIA,she immediately shut her mouth.She better enjoy her luxurious flight to P land or else im gonna smack her.

So,my mum's from Iriga city(12 hours away from Manila by bus) which is located in the Luzon region..Basically,its near the Mayon Volcano(its an hour away actually). I've been there before and damn was it beautiful though a little bit scary.A couple of years ago,a whole village got burnt down when there was a sudden eruption and since it was a Sunday and the majority of the villagers were at church,most were burnt alive.I visited the remains of the church and its believed that some bodies were never recovered.Scary no?

Whenever my family heads back for a visit,we'll spend at least a couple of days in Manila to visit my Sis and her family.I never liked Manila.Its just so polluted and crowded.The only thing that makes it bearable is that my sis stays less than 10 mins away from SM Megamall in Makati.The mall is 3 times bigger than Ion Orchard.It has a massive arcade,skating rink and tons of shops!hahahah..my kind of place.

After breathing in polluted air for a few days,we'll head to mum's province.I honestly enjoy the province more than the city.Its so much more relaxing and fun.Also,its where the majority of my familylives and its also less polluted than Manila..When we went back there 2 years ago,i was given the chance of staying at the newly renovated Iriga Plaza Hotel where i got to stay in their junior suite.Lets just say im a little pampered.hahha..but yeah.it was awesome.Also,the hotel was only a 5 min walk from my relatives house and my uncle's coffee shop.Each morning when i head down to have breakfast at my uncle's shop,i'll always be treated like royalty.They'll just get me whatever they can and although my uncle have been repeatedly reminded by my mom to not pamper me,he always does.

Sometimes,i miss waking up to the fresh air of the province. I miss feeling relaxed and being so stress free.

Im just too tired to continue.hopefully i'll add more on this soon.

Ruby.

Going public.

2012-01-24T23:51:00.000-08:00

Hey.I've had this blog for a couple of years now and i've decided to open it to the public.(like anyone would read it.hah!) i've unpublished certain posts that are very personal and hopefully,i'll update this blog regularly.

Things have been alright for me.I got a job at a bakery which is awesome as i plan to open up my own bakery and cafe in a couple of years time.

Me and K have broken up and sadly,im still trying to come to terms with the break.Its hard to be without that someone after spending over 2 years together.Feb 19th is supposed to be our 3rd year together.Although we're no longer together,we still do communicate and meet.Lets just say we have a very complicated relationship right now.I've tried finding a replacement but that didnt quite work out.I've come to realised that i wont be happy with another.I wont be able to fully open up my heart to another guy.I shouldnt have told him about N but i couldnt have kept it from him.I needed to come clean and i guess this is why we're no longer getting back together.I miss him and i still do think of him everyday.

I did rather badly for my O's although i got B's for most of my subjects.Im gonna retake Maths and Combined Science later this year as a private candidate.I cant believe one failed subject could cost me a year.Its way too late for 'i should've' so im gonna move on and learn from this mistake of mine.Lets hope i do well this time round.

My family's doing okay.We welcomed a new member earlier this month.My sister gave birth to her first daughter and we're thrilled about it.Though i hope she will stop having sex cause im now an aunt to 5 nephews and 4 nieces.Thanks to my sister's and brother's successful breeding scheme.If you're wondering how old is the oldest niece and nephew,they're 20 and 19.It is honestly weird to be an aunt to a person who is actually older than you but i've grown accustomed to it.

I've grown close to a couple of secondary school friends and im glad that i can count on them should anything happen.I'm starting to trust people now after coming to terms with the several betrayals of the people i was/am close to.I shall not elaborate further.

I guess i can safely say im a much happier person now than i was 2 years ago.That was the darkest and trying period of my life so far and i hope that i wont have to relive it ever again.However,that period of my life did some good for me.I wont be who i am today if i hadnt made that mistake.I can safely say that im a lot more matured and open minded.Which is good.

I have to go now.

RubyIsisEmber.

Ramblings.

2011-11-11T01:38:00.000-08:00

Tried doing my make up for prom after getting my make up set by L.A Girl on wednesday.I think i should enhance the eyeliner and maybe put more blusher..have no idea what i should do with my hair.i think the most sensible thing is to pull my hair into an updo since i my dress is slightly bare back...sigh.sometimes i feel like not going for prom but the amount of money spent is ridiculous and not going will ensure a full scolding session from my parents.lets do a break down on the amount of money i've spent shall we?maybe then i'll be super motivated to agree to a non-bakery job.here goes:

1)Prom dress from Glitter Glam-$150
2)Heels from Hush Puppies-$120
3)Make up from L.A Girl-$70
4)Clutch bag-$0(its mum's!!!)
5)Other expenses(taxi,gel paddings for blisters,accessories and other craps.)

After calculating my expenses,i can safely conclude that i will be spending or have spent nearly $400.can someone please reimburse my expenses?hahaha.if only uh..im thinking of having a twitter account but i dont think i'll even use it except to stalk jay from TW.hahahaha!luckily,he will never read this.

Menon has been ignoring me.Though it hurts i think it'll help me to move on.Let's hope he doesnt come knocking after awhile because im sure i wont have the ability to say no.i miss him.like a lot and i know its wrong of me to keep bothering him by incessantly calling and msging him but i cant help it.i wanna hear his voice and each time he calls i wish he would tell me he's coming back.though i've tried keeping myself occupied,my mind will not stop me from thinking of him.he's become a drug to me.im addicted to him and without a fix,i wont be able to work properly.i worry that he might have already moved on but each time i allow myself to accept that it is a possibility,i get upset evn though i know i can never do anything about it.

I miss him.i dont know if he still checks on my blog but if you are reading this K,i just wanna say im sorry and that i miss you.come back ok?i love you.

till here.

My Hair is GOONEE!!!

2008-12-14T01:00:00.000-08:00

BOO-HOO-HOO!

My long hair is gone!
Its like uber short rite now!
The stupid auntie cut wrongly!
Even the back is wrong!
I look like a boy!
my hair end at the top of my upper lip.
Dats how short it is.
It looks like a friggin bowl.
Haixx.
GROWGROWGROW!
My hair only looks okay when its wet.
It looks so weird when its dry.
And the bad part is my hair is sensitive when it comes to
Wax and Gel.
Haixx.
I miss my old hair!
Oh god.

Gtg.

May angels piss on u.

Rubyember.

ELDDS CAMP!

2008-11-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was AWESOME!!
We had the Eldds day camp!!
Damn fun marn.
We played games
Planned the SYF script
And had the bbq!
The food was good!
We ran around the hockey pitch wif bottles of water!
We were drenched from head to toe!
It was an awesome day!
We danced n head banged along wif the music!
And Raneesha didnt bathe!
We 'cleaned' her durin the water bomb
Which was held at the canteen,hockey pitch and the carpark!
The NCC also had thier camp on the same day..
Poor guys had Maggi for dinner.
Im really missing the crew.
Even the Mediabytes peeps.
And it's only a day!
Yeah..
Haixx..
continue tmr.

RubyEmber.

HAPPY B"DAY SABBY!!!

2008-11-23T01:29:00.000-08:00

HAPPY HAPPY B"DAY SABBY!

May all your wishes come true.
We'll do some serious shoppin in Philipines aite?
Haha.
You know i love you.

Okay,
Let me talk about yesterday's and today's event.

Well,yesterday was my cousin's b'day.
Yeah..went to her party.
The food was good.
The cake was awesome!
Swensen's Hazelnut Ice cream cake!
It was heaven!
Was too full.
Greedy?i know..
Ended up sleepin..
Haha.
Went to Granny's house after that.
Slacked till 10.
Went home and slept till 10 this mornin.

Today is a bore.
Had spring cleanin just now.
Damn tired now.
But dinner will be AWESOME!!
Want to join us Kenpachi?
Haha..
Havin an ELDDS meetin tmr.
Lazy to go..
Haixx.
But havin breakfast wif ZJ,Grace,Pingping and Kenpachi first.
Prata marn..
Khekeharx.

Till here den.

RubyEmberoutta.

P.S;I pity you,I really do.